Comfortable of being me...

In the silence, she felt the past & the present shift & mix, but that was a mirage.

There was no way to comfort the lost boy he'd been back then. But she had a grown male.

She had him right in her arms, & for a brief moment of whimsy, she imagined,that she was never, ever going to let him go.....

Love & Hope

Life is meaningless only if we allow it to be. Each of us has power to give life meaning, to make our tme, bodies and words into instruments of love & hope... insyaAllah :)

Last semester of study

3 years of time is like a blink of eyes. My marriage too is going to be a 3rd year in November. How time flies... Being with friends, study, assignments, events and hang out really build interpersonal relationship between us. That's what I've learned so far.

My study will be finishing in July, then once the baby junior is born & 100 days of confinement, l'l be focusing on career, the world that l left behind for almost 3 years. The feelings of excited, worry, sad & happy were played in mind & whether I can cope with all these responsibilities is another thing.

I know what I want & have a very strong determination to achieve it. Only prayers and doa is accompanying me to path of success. May Allah leads to the easiest way towards it...

So now I have to make sure that I'll be graduating with 1st class honour :) insyaAllah.

My

Pathetic...

When a woman tells the truth she is creating the possibility for more truth around her but all she's got is all the lies and hipocracy from another woman...

Love is in the air...

Love is something you should never take for granted! True love comes rarely so don't be fooled!

To my junior...

A new baby is like the beginning of all things, hope, a dream of possibilities.

Quote of the day

"Sometimes I need what only you can provide: your absence."

We can never predict...

"Jealous ppl poison their own banquet and then eat it"

We can never predict what's inside a mind and heart of a person. They, who have the negative thought even to their own blood!! Congratulations!! I'll always pray for my love ones to be strong and persistent. Darling, as much as you treat me as an untouchable precious person in your life, I'll always have you back no matter what...

Things that I want in life...

Every one has a dream. Mostly are almost the same but whatever it is, I love to put it here as an inspiration for me to be on track of what I want in life.

I guess this time around, I'll use pictures to describe my plans. Pictures should express thousand words right? So here we go...family, trip, dream house, dream car, vacations, handbags, watches etc.

Dear ALLAH, all these dreams and plans are not for me of being show off but to prepare a comfort shelter to my family, for the happiness of my family, provide great life, good education and to have a chance contributing to my religion, race and people who needed help, Ameen...

The best present from ALLAH

28th February is the date of my next ultrasound. Every time I went to medical check-up, Alhamdulillah hubby will accompany me and watch the ultrasound together.

I hope that this love that we shared together will be continuously happen to our next child too :) insyaAllah....

This would be our 3rd ultrasound. This time around, we got the gender, the measurement and physical as a whole. We can see this beautiful invention of ALLAH waving at us and crossing the leg happily. The gender, let it be the surprise until the day of the junior will be born.

YES! I can't wait. Every time I watch at the picture, it makes me smile and happy. The feelings of being a mother and knowing that living human is inside me is so amazing. SubhanaAllah..

My sisters, brothers, nieces and nephews can't wait to have a new family member to join us, because it's been awhile.

Junior is my strength to move on and giving me an inspiration to become a better person each day. Counting the days of the due date makes me nervous, excited and this is my pray, "ALLAH, I pray the baby to be normal, health and strong. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to have this beautiful feelings and hope I were given a chance to raise junior with the best that I can".

To my beloved hubby, thank you for the support and the patience. I love you and junior...

Celebration of Birthday at Phuket

It was a request from me to hubby to celebrate birthday at Phuket. This request was saved by me in the ipad2 of hubby just a friendly reminder to him. Surprisingly, he did fulfilled the wish.

On 17th Feb 2012, we departed from KLIA to Phuket and we will be staying there for 4 days and 3 nights. I was so excited as this is my first time of going, while for hubby, this was his 3rd.

First day of arrival, we've been greeted by the tour guide who'll brought us around the Phuket town. We were given a chance to watch the sunset (which I can't remember the name of this place).

Then after the dinner we're back to hotel for free and easy. This 1st day, we've got the chance to watch something of "what's in Phuket stays in Phuket" thingy.

Second day of the trip, we went to Pang Nga Bay tour or so called James Bond island. We've met other tourists from Canada, Singapore, Indonesia and even Malaysia. The scenic was quite nice and hubby was excitedly looking at the Mat Salleh girls wearing 2 pieces. I just don't mind and let him enjoyed himself. At night, since it was 18th Feb, Hubby brought me to Hard Rock Cafe Phuket to celebrate my birthday. I was so happy and we watched a few shows. i would say, HRC Phuket is slightly different from the HRC that I've been before... If you guys wanna know, go and find out.

Third day, we went for snorkeling to a place near Phi Phi Island. Then we had lunch at Phi Phi island near the beach. It was so hot and all the Mat Salleh were sun bathing at 1.15pm at noon. Wow! At night after the dinner, we went to Bang La Road, have a coffee at Starbuck and just hang out watching people's around us. Hubby was so friendly and have a chit chat with a guy from Helsinki. We were so amazed to see so many tourists walking along the road and the best part was that we never bump into the same people from the same country. It was like you are living on the globe where everybody were there. You name it: Greece, Finland, UK, USA, Australia, Singapore, Indonesia, Canada etc.

Fourth day was the last day of the trip. We woke up early in the morning and I accompanied hubby to swim at the hotel. We brought some souvenirs mostly t-shirts from HRC for my nieces, nephews, sisters and his side.

Hubby,thank you for a wonderful trip and I know you worked hard to save some money and make me happy. InsyaAllah, we will plan for other trip and looking forward to Europe tour. I love you Baby...