Valuable...

"Value everything you share. Wish each other even for little things"

Beri Kami yang Terbaik

kita tak pernah menyangka

ini semua akan terjadi

mungkin kita terlalu lupakannya

hingga akhirnya berikan cobaan ini

hilang semua milik kita

petik hikmah dari segala yang terjadi

Tuhan mohon lepaskan semua

cobaaan dan penderitaan ini

Tuhan beri kami kekuatan

untuk bisa menghadapi ini

mungkin kita terlalu sombong

anggap diri kita yang paling hebat

sampai kita melupakan-Nya

hingga akhirnya berikan cobaan ini

kita pasti akan hilang

kita pasti akan kembali padanya

Tuhan mohon lepaskan semua

cobaaan dan penderitaan ini

Tuhan beri kami kekuatan

untuk bisa menghadapi ini

hanya Engkau yang sanggup tenangkan

gelisah dan resah di hati

Tuhan mohon lepaskan semua

cobaaan dan penderitaan ini

Tuhan beri kami kekuatan

untuk bisa menghadapi ini

hanya Engkau yang sanggup tenangkan

gelisah dan resah di hati

berilah kami yang terbaik

....but if it's fade???

Our small tiny little world...Dayyan & me

 "At some point, we have to realize that some people can stay in our heart but not in our life"

False Love...you said...

"So many girls fall in love with the wrong guys,simply because the wrong guys say the right things...."

Desolado....

Promises are things you said that cannot and should not been broken. If you think you can't keep it, you shouldn't make them at the beginning. You wouldn't know how heart broken it is...but that is the rules.

You made the choices, you choose the path so you'll have to feel the pain. You are not importante any more to the person when it is tied up with legal certificate (if you have one but if you don't, then you'll be suffering for your future generation; as if like a decade of burden). It is better to be courting together because you'll be the apple of the eye.

Why now? Why it has to keep until there's a next generation? Are you happy with this revenge? Is this a sweet revenge for you? Congratulations because it's succeed. The mother's blood, sweat & tears will only be to her "sunshine". Too much of desolado.....

It's November....

The month of November is in the picture now. Dayyan,my little son is already 3months & 10 days. So it means I am 100 days of confinement but I guess I've eaten many kinds of "forbidden" food already :).
Aidiladha was being celebrated with joy together with my siblings. I am moving to a new house too & this house is awesome! Thanks to Hubby who's trying his best in fulfilling his wife's dream but yet to have a bungalow, right Hubby? ;)
I am busy with internship and it's going to end by this December insyaAllah. My pray to Allah to be graduated with First Class Honors, insyaAllah. A few of MNC companies are calling me for an interview. Hope there's an opportunity for my career advancement.
November too bring up my marriage to the 3rd years now. How time flies....Hope everything will be at a better place for Hubby, Dayyan & me.
Talking about Dayyan, he's a smart boy and manja. He do have his own vocabulary which is "ging ging" it means MILK. He's such an adorable son and raising him teach me of being a patient person because he will cry if I am not around. It is hard for me to go out doing my work etc and maid will be leaving for good on this 15th November. I wonder how it'll be to send my lil "ging ging" to a nursery. Mommy's heart will be pounding hard then.
Sometimes there are times I was thinking of being a housewife but it's a waste of my degree. Plus I am planning to take a master program soon which now UiTM has offered me one. My prayer to Allah to lead and guide me to the right path which Allah knows best.
Well, I guess too many stories in this entry would confuse the reader too :). Owh, I just realize that there are no pictures of my little son in this blog. Well, I simply do that by hoping there are people would be interested to meet/accept him but I guess no. How I wish his late grandparents were around so he'll be loved with tender loving care....

"I have my own playmate, playpen & toys but I still want my Ging-ging Mommy"

"Yes, this is what HANDSOME looks like"

"I LOVE my Abah. It's like looking at the mirror but  without moustache"

Aidiladha with beloved son

Twinkle, twinkle little star....

Small happy family :D

"Do I look like a mat saleh boy, Mommy?"

Journey to the center of the patient....

13th september 2012, my little smart adorable son was admitted to the hospital.
This is due to the breathing problems for almost 3 weeks. He was being nabbed, suction and sadly his hands & legs were bruised because of the side lines. I cant bear to see him cry & he seems to be so scared whenever the doctors or nurses came near him.

I've been tested hardly with the situation & it was the time for me & my baby Dayyan to be alone. We share our feelings together & my smart little boy seems to understand every single things I said.
Ya ALLAH, may my son is healthier & stronger..... :(

Back into Shape

I am  working hard to have my old figure or even sexier!

The spirit....

It's the month of Syawal and I'm in confinement. The best thing happen in my life when little  Dayyan Zuffar bin Zolkifli comes into my life.
He's such an adorable child with lots of expressions, sounds, mimic and actions. Always the winner to win my heart, to take my breath away, to make me smile and even makes me cry. Well, before this, it's only his dad who has the power over me.... :).
He's now 28 days old but such a smart son, insyaALLAH.
Little Dayyan totally changes me to someone new. I become more sensitive, more....hurm...I would say it's kinda good things.
I love him so so much which I can't even describe the feelings even to write this simple entry, can easily makes me cry. The saddest part when I see him non-stop crying with teardrops on his face. Owh! Really breaking my heart.
I'm having restless nights & sometimes I do feel lazy to wake up & breast feed him (he's 100% bf). But every time when I bathe him & look at his angelic face with tiny hands & legs, I realize how important to provide the best for him.
People would say it's a normal feelings of a woman but to me it's a new thing. I've learnt a lot & with this memory, I prefer to write it down so it'll be something sweet to remember.
Mommy loves you Dayyan Zuffar :)

To The Man I LOVE The Most...

Some pray to marry the man they love, I humbly pray that I LOVE the
MAN I marry...so I did, Alhamdulillah :)

The Unforgettable Experience...

July 25th, 2012, it was 6am in the morning & I was in pain. Is this the sign? I wonder...and I went to the toilet to check whether there is any period stain, blood or amniotic fluid. Negative. I guess it's just me who being too curious, too excited. The estimated due date is on the 1st August 2012.
It was then disappear & came back at 11am. How am I going to react to this discomfort & pain. I am not sure of the sign & I googled. There are 2 types of contraction, true contraction & Braxton Hicks also known as "fake contraction". So, I guess mine was a fake contraction because it was not consistent & I thought it's just a baby movement. However, I've monitored the time & it was every 20 to 30 minutes but irregular. I called the doctor & described my situation, so the doctor said it was not the sign.
I told Hubby to bring me to the nearest clinic just to check before we decided to go to the hospital. Hubby agreed & we went to the clinic  at 6.30pm. The doctor monitored the contraction for 20 minutes & surprisingly the contraction was consistent for every 5 minutes. The doctor then write a letter to refer me to the hospital and advised me to go to the hospital immediately.
After for a while, me & Hubby decided to take our own sweet time to break-fast and drive slowly to PPUM. When we went to level 3 the nurses asked me to admitted to the labour  room. I was shocked, just like this? Since PPUM is not a husband friendly hospital, my Hubby needs to stay outside, hold all my stuffs & perhaps that was the last time of me seeing Hubby.
We arrived at the hospital at 9pm, the doctor came and checked at 10.30pm. I was given a drip & the nurse was being instructed to monitor my junior's CTG. When dripped, my contraction became regular & I can't bear the pain, it was started at 10.45pm.
11pm, when the doctor came & checked my cervical opening measurement, it was just 2cm & according to the doctor, since this is my 1st child, it might take 8-12 hours to open until 8cm.
 The pain due to consistent contraction was unbearable, I can feel the mucus (which I'm not sure whether it is  amniotic fluid or urine) every time contraction. So, I begged 1 of the nurses to check but they refused & said it was how it feels & my case I'll be delivering at 5am or 6am, again, it's my 1st baby.
11.05pm, I accidentally pushed during contraction & called 1 of the nurse to just check. At first she refused but then she agreed to check just to satisfy me.
It was 11.10pm when the arrogant nurse checked my cervical opening & guess what? The opening is already 8cm & the doctor was called to get ready for the delivery.
After 4 times of pushing the baby, Alhamdulillah, a cute, 2.75kg baby boy was delivered at 11.13pm. Hubby then came and visit at ward to recite azan to the baby.

Shukran ya ALLAH for giving me such an unforgettable experience and a supportive Husband who went through this pregnancy together... I am a happy Mommy!!

Kenduri Doa Selamat+Kenduri Arwah_Baby Shower 8th July 2012

It's raining, It's pouring, it's a baby we'll be adoring, it's a baby shower time with mummy & daddy to be; Zol & Darling...

It was 8th of July 2012, 36 weeks of pregnancy, we've decided to do a small feast at our house. Beloved siblings, nieces and nephews were too helpful and they've prepared a baby shower for me & little junior. The feast was started at 2pm for the closed family members. 

The baby shower started at 3pm for the invited guests. Mira, my niece was preparing the cute cookies, the games and even prepared for the presents for the winner. The theme was; blue for the guys and pink for the ladies specially for my beloved lovely and sporting classmates. Alhamdulillah they were enjoying themselves with the food and the games. Classmates made a sweet surprise by giving me a cute sexy cake. I love you guys!! 

Thanks to my BELOVED Hubby who's the backbone of the event. He's arranging the food (catering), preparing for the event, cleaning the house, mopping the floor (before & after event). EVERYTHING!! I LOVE you darling...

Thanks to Kak Yang my beloved sister who preparing the delicious desserts; the puddings, samosa, local kuih, fruits punch.

Thanks to family members who came to the feast and recite the Doa for me & little junior. Recite Doa of "kenduri arwah" for my beloved late mom, late dad & late brother in law.

It was a pleasant weekend to spend time with loved ones, family and friends. Hope everybody is enjoying the food, the effort & the presents. On behalf of my Hubby, thanks to ALL who made our feast & baby shower succeed. Thanks for ALL the presents too!! Hugs & kisses... 

Below are some photos of the event :D

Islamic Thinking

Allah SWT has the blueprint for your LIFE that is already mapped out. So even if a hater TRIED, nothing will STOP you from getting what's already YOURS

Chosen quote of the DAY

Home wreckers wouldn't have a home to wreck if your SIGNIFICANT OTHER never let them through the door.... because there are mysteries about our LOVE. Things that only we can understand. Love is an emotion without limitation & LOVE is not a clock. We know we LOVE each other too much and no one cannot simply take it apart just to see what makes it tick.

What do YOU see?

A guy and his girl were standing in front of the mirror: The girl asked, "What do you see?" The guy smiled and said, "We are a matching couples and suit to be together. I can see the rest of my life of being with YOU."

Our Colourful LOVES life...

.......And as he spoke of understanding, I looked up and saw the rainbow leap with flames of many colours over me. That's how our loves meant to be... See how colourful we are :)

Seminar Conflict & Management Skills in Teluk Dalam, Pangkor

This is the latest event which was happening on last Friday until Sunday. The seminar went well as I was chosen as the BEST PRESENTER, Sarah won the BEST DRESS for girl & Fadhil won the BEST DRESS for guy. It was awesome because we took the chance to spend a short vacation with friends. Hope this won't be the last holiday for us..I'm gonna miss them... Thanks to Sir Dzulkarnain for the support.

"MEMORY is a way of holding onto the things you LOVE, the things you are, the things you never want to lose"

Sarah's Birthday Bash

Even though Sarah's Birthday is in May. I just got all the pictures to be uploaded here. We were celebrating her birthday at Japanese buffet restaurant at KLCC. Her brother invited us to be part of the event and thankful for that. The food---YUMMY!! Here are some of the photos of my little baby mermaid & besties... 

When we first talked to each other

I knew we would always be friends

Our friendship as kept on growing

And I'll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have problems

And help dry the tears from my face

You take away my sorrow

And put happiness in its place

We can't forget the fun we had

Laughing till our faces turn blue

Talking of things only we find funny

People think we're insane - if they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying THANKS

For catching me when I fall

Thanks once again for being such a good friend

And being here with me through it ALL

I LOVE YOU SARAH MIRLIANA... :)

Karnival Interpersonalists Islam "Jom Imarahkan Masjid"

This is the last project of part 5 students Interpersonal Communication. It was held at Masjid Sultan Abdul Aziz Shah, Shah Alam. It was a BIG success to all of the team. The invited guests are Imam-imam Muda, Sham Kamikaze, Farah Asyikin & Diana Amir. Congratulations to ALL!!