The spirit....

It's the month of Syawal and I'm in confinement. The best thing happen in my life when little  Dayyan Zuffar bin Zolkifli comes into my life.
He's such an adorable child with lots of expressions, sounds, mimic and actions. Always the winner to win my heart, to take my breath away, to make me smile and even makes me cry. Well, before this, it's only his dad who has the power over me.... :).
He's now 28 days old but such a smart son, insyaALLAH.
Little Dayyan totally changes me to someone new. I become more sensitive, more....hurm...I would say it's kinda good things.
I love him so so much which I can't even describe the feelings even to write this simple entry, can easily makes me cry. The saddest part when I see him non-stop crying with teardrops on his face. Owh! Really breaking my heart.
I'm having restless nights & sometimes I do feel lazy to wake up & breast feed him (he's 100% bf). But every time when I bathe him & look at his angelic face with tiny hands & legs, I realize how important to provide the best for him.
People would say it's a normal feelings of a woman but to me it's a new thing. I've learnt a lot & with this memory, I prefer to write it down so it'll be something sweet to remember.
Mommy loves you Dayyan Zuffar :)

To The Man I LOVE The Most...

Some pray to marry the man they love, I humbly pray that I LOVE the
MAN I marry...so I did, Alhamdulillah :)

The Unforgettable Experience...

July 25th, 2012, it was 6am in the morning & I was in pain. Is this the sign? I wonder...and I went to the toilet to check whether there is any period stain, blood or amniotic fluid. Negative. I guess it's just me who being too curious, too excited. The estimated due date is on the 1st August 2012.
It was then disappear & came back at 11am. How am I going to react to this discomfort & pain. I am not sure of the sign & I googled. There are 2 types of contraction, true contraction & Braxton Hicks also known as "fake contraction". So, I guess mine was a fake contraction because it was not consistent & I thought it's just a baby movement. However, I've monitored the time & it was every 20 to 30 minutes but irregular. I called the doctor & described my situation, so the doctor said it was not the sign.
I told Hubby to bring me to the nearest clinic just to check before we decided to go to the hospital. Hubby agreed & we went to the clinic  at 6.30pm. The doctor monitored the contraction for 20 minutes & surprisingly the contraction was consistent for every 5 minutes. The doctor then write a letter to refer me to the hospital and advised me to go to the hospital immediately.
After for a while, me & Hubby decided to take our own sweet time to break-fast and drive slowly to PPUM. When we went to level 3 the nurses asked me to admitted to the labour  room. I was shocked, just like this? Since PPUM is not a husband friendly hospital, my Hubby needs to stay outside, hold all my stuffs & perhaps that was the last time of me seeing Hubby.
We arrived at the hospital at 9pm, the doctor came and checked at 10.30pm. I was given a drip & the nurse was being instructed to monitor my junior's CTG. When dripped, my contraction became regular & I can't bear the pain, it was started at 10.45pm.
11pm, when the doctor came & checked my cervical opening measurement, it was just 2cm & according to the doctor, since this is my 1st child, it might take 8-12 hours to open until 8cm.
 The pain due to consistent contraction was unbearable, I can feel the mucus (which I'm not sure whether it is  amniotic fluid or urine) every time contraction. So, I begged 1 of the nurses to check but they refused & said it was how it feels & my case I'll be delivering at 5am or 6am, again, it's my 1st baby.
11.05pm, I accidentally pushed during contraction & called 1 of the nurse to just check. At first she refused but then she agreed to check just to satisfy me.
It was 11.10pm when the arrogant nurse checked my cervical opening & guess what? The opening is already 8cm & the doctor was called to get ready for the delivery.
After 4 times of pushing the baby, Alhamdulillah, a cute, 2.75kg baby boy was delivered at 11.13pm. Hubby then came and visit at ward to recite azan to the baby.

Shukran ya ALLAH for giving me such an unforgettable experience and a supportive Husband who went through this pregnancy together... I am a happy Mommy!!

Kenduri Doa Selamat+Kenduri Arwah_Baby Shower 8th July 2012

It's raining, It's pouring, it's a baby we'll be adoring, it's a baby shower time with mummy & daddy to be; Zol & Darling...

It was 8th of July 2012, 36 weeks of pregnancy, we've decided to do a small feast at our house. Beloved siblings, nieces and nephews were too helpful and they've prepared a baby shower for me & little junior. The feast was started at 2pm for the closed family members. 

The baby shower started at 3pm for the invited guests. Mira, my niece was preparing the cute cookies, the games and even prepared for the presents for the winner. The theme was; blue for the guys and pink for the ladies specially for my beloved lovely and sporting classmates. Alhamdulillah they were enjoying themselves with the food and the games. Classmates made a sweet surprise by giving me a cute sexy cake. I love you guys!! 

Thanks to my BELOVED Hubby who's the backbone of the event. He's arranging the food (catering), preparing for the event, cleaning the house, mopping the floor (before & after event). EVERYTHING!! I LOVE you darling...

Thanks to Kak Yang my beloved sister who preparing the delicious desserts; the puddings, samosa, local kuih, fruits punch.

Thanks to family members who came to the feast and recite the Doa for me & little junior. Recite Doa of "kenduri arwah" for my beloved late mom, late dad & late brother in law.

It was a pleasant weekend to spend time with loved ones, family and friends. Hope everybody is enjoying the food, the effort & the presents. On behalf of my Hubby, thanks to ALL who made our feast & baby shower succeed. Thanks for ALL the presents too!! Hugs & kisses... 

Below are some photos of the event :D

Islamic Thinking

Allah SWT has the blueprint for your LIFE that is already mapped out. So even if a hater TRIED, nothing will STOP you from getting what's already YOURS

Chosen quote of the DAY

Home wreckers wouldn't have a home to wreck if your SIGNIFICANT OTHER never let them through the door.... because there are mysteries about our LOVE. Things that only we can understand. Love is an emotion without limitation & LOVE is not a clock. We know we LOVE each other too much and no one cannot simply take it apart just to see what makes it tick.

What do YOU see?

A guy and his girl were standing in front of the mirror: The girl asked, "What do you see?" The guy smiled and said, "We are a matching couples and suit to be together. I can see the rest of my life of being with YOU."